Well, this is mighty discouraging - 3 days? or is it 4? Thank god I haven't given anyone the URL yet. I am again trying to decide what will actually get written in here. I need to comment on something, such as the silly "Plastic surgeon" advertisement they are running during the Avengers (a bunch of older women with very taught face skin saying how confident they are now), which should expose at least a little of my own view of the world. But really, that view is what I would like to get out - along with the things that I don't understand, like how does erotic attraction figure in to the scheme of things: I have only had a strong erotic attraction to two women so far in my life, and neither of those relationships "worked out", at least not according to my definition of going on for as long as I wanted them to - and the relationships that did more or less run their course: what of them? Is eroticism something to seek out, or something to avoid? Or is it just something that sometimes exists, sort of a "pleasant to have" when in a primary partnership (or a hookup)? I am so confused by what is important to me. And by extension, what I think must be important in general for everyone. If that's really true, that if it's important to me, it should be important to anyone else (or everyone else). Maybe that's my real mistake, to think that anything I figure out for myself applies to anyone else - maybe each and every one of us needs to develop our own individual philosophy about what kinds of relationships are worth pursuing, and what components those relationships should be imbued with...Well, time to post this or it will be tomorrow!