No, I'm not dead - but I'm nearly as good as from a blogging perspective. Almost 10 days without a peep. And why? Just because. And I have virtually nothing interesting to say today either! What if this was a syndicated column (no jokes about "who would publish that shit", please)? But it is raining (and has been for a couple days) and I am in Bad Ass Coffee (kind of vaguely similar to Kick Butt Coffee in Austin), so I feel that this might be my opportunity to have another blog post before my brain completely kicks off. 
So, what's been happening? Rain, school, Obamacare (which is more frustrating and useless than I had hoped), I really need to get all my ducks in a row: where is the money coming from, how will I arrange things so that I can do everything that needs doing (right now I'm getting fat as a pig due to insufficient exercise combined with inadequate self control in eating), I just keep doing stuff and don't spend enough time concentrating on really making sure that what I'm doing is something that is moving me forward in my goal to be who I believe that I should be. If your god never disagrees with you, maybe it's just an idealized version of yourself? This is what a preacher said, and I'm not at all sure what he's saying: I suppose that it is something along the lines of "I can show you how to act in the bible, act that way and you are following God's will" - but the bible is such an easily re-interpretable book, you can read in pretty much ANYTHING, which would mean, once again, your god isn't really disagreeing with you. Maybe he means, "If your god disagrees with me, you are wrong and are going to hell", somehow that seems like a more realistic thing for a preacher to say...Or is that unfair: it's certainly the kind of thing that I heard from preachers during my "more religeous" phase...
Anyway - rain on the west coast, snow on the east coast - texting with friends on my phone and road trip planning - this actually is how I want to live my life. Mabye I should go join a gym so that I can work out some. I wonder if I'll get access to any of Santa Rosa Jr College facilities because I'm volunteering to give massage in their Sports Medicine department? That would be pretty sweet. Is this any less rambling than all my other posts? I don't think so. What I really need to do is look at all these posts, glean what I need to to create my Christmas letter, get the damned thing printed out and mail off all those Christmas cards - it's fucking December 11 already, those cards need to go NOW!